Friday, September 20, 2013



Always writing in the shadow of an avalanche,
ashes on a white page, miscarriage of an urn,
are they mine, a freak of time, Stonehenge around a firepit?
My ears pinned flat against my head like a brow beaten cat,
waiting on the next move of a meteor shower
that’s been pummelling me like a clapper in a bell tower
that’s gone a couple of rounds too long
without calling off the fight. Firing squads
taking tickets and standing in line to shoot the stars
out of my eyes, like a repeating decimal, and here I am
writing another poem like a bird at the bars of a prison.

Beats staring down the plaster walls, the deserted street,
the middens of the Hooker’s green garbage bags
leaning against the parking meters like the afterlives
of prophetic archaeologists scrying my remains,
or trying to retain my composure in a snakepit of anxieties
like the third eye of a hurricane of razorwire
heading my way like a skill saw in a morgue
trepanning my skull cap off like a hard-boiled cosmic egg
to relieve the oceanic pressure of my underground madness
like the surface of Europa flowering
like a fountain of the sulphurous waters of life.

I was born trying to return to some place like a salmon
through a gauntlet of grizzlies, rocks, and eagles
as if only exiles find their way back home
from this turbulent sea of awareness upstream
against the flow of the mind to sort the swimmers
from the drowned. Have I spawned? Is it time to die?
Is my genome satisfied? Are the water sylphs
of the sacred pools gathered from the tears
of all those who cried out in vain for the unattainable
happy with the ingot of moonlight I’ve returned to them
like the blunted edge of a silver sword I will never
be called upon to use again like a third feather
in defence of the tribe in a hermetic holy war with myself?

I’ve always remembered what the garden-master asked
when I was boy. What’s madness but nobility of soul
at odds with circumstance? Meaning hydro, the rent, the heat,
the need to eat minimally, clothe yourself in the raiment
of the flowers of the field, keep the bearings in the wheel
of birth and death well-oiled to keep from seizing up
like the surgical amputation of my brother’s diabetic leg,
or the black dwarf with a clenched fist at the centre
of my solar system playing Russian roulette with itself
to clarify my nirvanic response to the trivial and tragically mundane
by showing my brain what an astronomic extinction event
looked like to the dinosaurs after years of volcanic activity
poisoning the atmosphere like acid rain thrown in the eyes
of the wildflowers learning to read the stars for themselves.

The night is cold and dark, eyeless, starless, indifferent
to people pleading at their windows for whatever they need
to survive their own minds in a sensory deprivation tank
of another night on earth of going without in the name
of an ambivalently greater radiance that can’t be measured
in candle flames and starmaps, but the light so pervasively intense
even your diamonds evaporate like dry ice and carbon directly
into the spiritual life of a lost atmosphere on a shepherd moon
that opens its heart like a meat locker to the question marks
it’s hooked on like a Sioux warrior at a sundance in Leo
with crescent moons pierced through its chest like a fish
acquiring prophetic powers in the rapture of the pain.
Angels singing in the autos da fe of unconfessed heretics
in an ancient agon of draconian flame throwers
and monkish fire hydrants outside the Scotia Bank across the street.
Scotia, the dark one, watching the watchers from boreal caves.

I don’t ride golden chariots through the slums
blithely dismissing other people’s pain like a new age
bureaucratically quoting their post-graduate karma
like a correct choice of shoes they made that don’t pinch
or slash your calves like first magnitude spurs
on your winged heels that at least get off the ground
as if a spiritual life were just a matter of footwear
and never walking anywhere barefoot with your own starmud
oozing between your toes on a long firewalk of ghosts
rising up into the air like smoke from the distant fires
of sea stars and galaxies flowing across the firmament
like the spilt milk of a lactating rheostat nursing Jupiter
in a cave in Crete to keep him from being eaten alive by Titans
lording the paternity of time over the maternal instincts of space.

But sometimes everyone needs a voice to ride with them
through the inverted arches of their triumphal defeats
to remind them they’re not mortal after the gates
close behind them in the wake of a book of poems
someone gave them to read like the heartwood of a sacred oak
standing up to the lightning in courageous dread
of what’s about to befall it like a crack of revelation
running like serpent fire from the roots up
to the sword that hangs like the Orion nebula
above the grailquests and cosmic eggcups
of Cygnus sticking its long neck out to swan
for the double-bladed axe of the waxing and waning moon
threshing the pawn shop mistletoe of the globular streetlights
with a golden sickle, coming and going, while I’m ploughing
lunar boustrophedons like the runes of retreating glaciers
into the mute rocks of the Canadian Shield weeping
lakes full of stars in the scars I’ve kept like vows
to get some sleep being carried home upon it
like Scutum in the southern hemisphere or the stretcher
of another poem by a conscientious objector summoned
by the siren of a singing ambulance, bound to the mast
of a shipwrecked world scuttled high and dry in the mountains
after the flood, apres moi le deluge, like the ark of the Burgess Shale.




In the fires of life stand up for the heresy of your humanity
as if there were no one else to burn for it, but you.
When you’re enveloped in the flames of an estranged loveletter
that embraced you like a flower that bloomed in fire
a long time ago, o how many afterlives has it been
since the hive had a dark queen to attend upon,
whether they honour your urn or spread your ashes
on an icy walkway for more pedestrian traffic,
don’t hitch your dragons to the death cart of a false dawn,
but ride the wind exhilarated as Icarus in your own updraft
like the errant flightpath of a firefly with a mind of its own
knowing there’s more insight in the sun that shines at midnight
than there is in the shadowless noon of a shallow enlightenment.

Listen to your heart as if it were real, not solid
and soon enough you’ll be able to hear with your eyes
what your ears can’t see that far beyond
the aerial perspective of the dark where parallel lines meet
to focus on burning another black hole in the sky
with the congruence of the intensity in the iris of your third eye.

Fire doesn’t burn fire, so you can shine lyrically like the earth
in the presence of your own star without being consumed.
How do I know this? I can taste the words life puts in my mouth
like a prophet in a fireproof furnace steeling the iron in my blood
like the growing edge of a sword tempered in my tears
that kills me back into lightyears of life every time I fall upon it
to save the face of some unknown tomorrow from debasing
the integrity of its sorrows by not hammering out the slag
of lesser stones than we draw the best Damascene swords from
as we do the sabres of the moon to the rhythm of a pulse
on the anvils of our percussive hearts forging fire-breathing dragons
shedding the darkest nights of our eyeless ores,
like a bunting of skin, a ribbon and windsock for the stars
that keep circling the north pole like the exoteric tree rings
of the lost art deep in our heartwood of calling down the lightning
like the roots of a seed embedded in our starmud, waking up
after a long sleep, like a pine-cone in the firestorm
of a germinating desire to live as immensely as possible.

While there’s time to grow the preludes and epilogues
of the next threshold we’re about to cross like refugees
over a bridge that spans the omnidirectional extremes
of our mindstreams getting on with their going
like waterclocks and aqueducts, or nightcreeks
whispering their lyrical way like the ode of a dark road
out of a grove of sacred aspens into a clearing brighter
than the light of the stars that pilot the orbs of the dung beetles
or shepherd dragons to graze on fire in higher pastures
than the world mountain could imagine in its wildest dreams.

Swept up in the fires of life, in this delirium
of inconceivable probabilities sleepwalking among the stars,
clarity isn’t so much a matter of burning your old tattoos off
like constellations that leave scars or cauterizing sunspots
like dangerous moles before they eclipse your immaculate wholeness
with the veils of isotopic ghost fleets raising sail in the bays of the north,
as it is in losing yourself in the picture-music of the lightshows
the mind puts on like an artist who isn’t looking for an alibi
to justify his eyes to what he sees without corrective lenses
like a starmap of fireflies without a fixed place in time and space.

In the fires of life you must be perfectly combustible
like the rainbow bodies of the wise men of Tibet, your eyes
inflammable as two lumps of coal in the skull of a snow man,
dead branches for arms, and your heart so generous
nothing left of it can be found like an ice cream cone
that’s fallen to the ground from the hands of a child for the ants,
and melted away into diverse forms of life that ensure
it doesn’t go to waste. We will all break bread in time
with the worms that shall nibble the crumbs of our dreams
from the corners of our eyes. Maggots overpunctuating
our mouths with too many commas and semi-colons,
necrophagoi editing our hearts and brains like turkey vultures
amending us like roadkill as if we were merely the first draft
of a poem ablaze and scattered with life as rapturous frogs in the rain.