Monday, March 16, 2009

WIDE OPEN NIGHT

WIDE OPEN NIGHT


Wide open night, supple and unresponsive

you come on like a cool, black pearl,

an eclipse of the mind,

to keep me from going blind.

And it hurts to think

of how I could love you and won’t.

There’s a mystic urgency in the pain

of a universe in a grain of sand

trying to catch a pyramid’s attention,

and I doubt if I’ve caught yours

though I know the names

of all your stars

and saved the first drafts

of all your pulp-fiction constellations

as if they were the fakings of a holy book.

I don’t know why

my passion for you

always ends up feeling

like the afterbirth of small nations

on third-world rations,

or worst-world cannibals

trying to teach me how to cook.

One day I’ll compile a grammar

of the indecipherable markings

on the flaring hood

of the queen cobra in the room

that bides her time

by swaying to the music

as if she were the writing on the wall.

I’ll learn to speak to you about unspeakable things

and when you smile at me

I won’t feel as if my blood

were being strained through a teatowel

like stewed blackberries

being thickened into jam.

I will be maculately clear

about who I am

and you will know

that each of us

is experiencing

the whole of the universe

in every moment

as ourselves,

and life is not more

and death is not less

than they have ever been,

that no river is flowing the wrong way to the sea,

that what you see is engendered by the unseen

and what flowers within you

is the perennial theme

of water in the mindstream

enabling forms effortlessly

along the uncontainable way of its growing

to play at being you

deep in the wells and watersheds

of your unfathomable eyes

and more lightly on the grass like dew.


PATRICK WHITE














WIDE OPEN NIGHT

WIDE OPEN NIGHT


Wide open night, supple and unresponsive

you come on like a cool, black pearl,

an eclipse of the mind,

to keep me from going blind.

And it hurts to think

of how I could love you and won’t.

There’s a mystic urgency in the pain

of a universe in a grain of sand

trying to catch a pyramid’s attention,

and I doubt if I’ve caught yours

though I know the names

of all your stars

and saved the first drafts

of all your pulp-fiction constellations

as if they were the fakings of a holy book.

I don’t know why

my passion for you

always ends up feeling

like the afterbirth of small nations

on third-world rations,

or worst-world cannibals

trying to teach me how to cook.

One day I’ll compile a grammar

of the indecipherable markings

on the flaring hood

of the queen cobra in the room

that bides her time

by swaying to the music

as if she were the writing on the wall.

I’ll learn to speak to you about unspeakable things

and when you smile at me

I won’t feel as if my blood

were being strained through a teatowel

like stewed blackberries

being thickened into jam.

I will be maculately clear

about who I am

and you will know

that each of us

is experiencing

the whole of the universe

in every moment

as ourselves,

and life is not more

and death is not less

than they have ever been,

that no river is flowing the wrong way to the sea,

that what you see is engendered by the unseen

and what flowers within you

is the perennial theme

of water in the mindstream

enabling forms effortlessly

along the uncontainable way of its growing

to play at being you

deep in the wells and watersheds

of your unfathomable eyes

and more lightly on the grass like dew.


PATRICK WHITE














WIDE OPEN NIGHT

WIDE OPEN NIGHT


Wide open night, supple and unresponsive

you come on like a cool, black pearl,

an eclipse of the mind,

to keep me from going blind.

And it hurts to think

of how I could love you and won’t.

There’s a mystic urgency in the pain

of a universe in a grain of sand

trying to catch a pyramid’s attention,

and I doubt if I’ve caught yours

though I know the names

of all your stars

and saved the first drafts

of all your pulp-fiction constellations

as if they were the fakings of a holy book.

I don’t know why

my passion for you

always ends up feeling

like the afterbirth of small nations

on third-world rations,

or worst-world cannibals

trying to teach me how to cook.

One day I’ll compile a grammar

of the indecipherable markings

on the flaring hood

of the queen cobra in the room

that bides her time

by swaying to the music

as if she were the writing on the wall.

I’ll learn to speak to you about unspeakable things

and when you smile at me

I won’t feel as if my blood

were being strained through a teatowel

like stewed blackberries

being thickened into jam.

I will be maculately clear

about who I am

and you will know

that each of us

is experiencing

the whole of the universe

in every moment

as ourselves,

and life is not more

and death is not less

than they have ever been,

that no river is flowing the wrong way to the sea,

that what you see is engendered by the unseen

and what flowers within you

is the perennial theme

of water in the mindstream

enabling forms effortlessly

along the uncontainable way of its growing

to play at being you

deep in the wells and watersheds

of your unfathomable eyes

and more lightly on the grass like dew.


PATRICK WHITE