I LIKE A LOT OF SOLITUDE
I like a lot of solitude with my freedom.
I don’t like my liberty cramped.
I don’t want to be exiled from my past
or summoned to my future.
If there are longings
let them find their own fulfillment
like rivers flowing to the sea.
If there is darkness
let it come to light
and may the fireflies
and the emerging stars
jolt you into lucidity and life
as deeply as the lightning bolt
of an insight
that doesn’t leave scars.
The rarity of a few brief moments of clarity
has always made more
of an impression upon me
than a lifetime of dreams
and whenever I’ve come
to a trine in the road I’m on
pointing the way out to a wave on the ocean
I’ve always chosen the middle of three extremes
and chosen feet
over fins and wings
and walked on as if I knew where I was going.
To see things as they are
isn’t to rob them
of the strange beauty
of the way they seem.
It isn’t just enlightenment
that lays the moon
cooly on your forehead
in a fever of life.
are creators and healers too
engines and instigators
of what makes you you.
Trapped in the mirage of a burning house.
You’d need a mirage of water to put it out.
Real water wouldn’t work.
Sometimes it takes a lie
to expose a lie to the truth.
Anything that heals is true.
And anything that wounds is not.
Salvation can wait until we’re dead.
What the world needs now is rescue.
That’s why my heart drifts with the current
like a lifeboat
that’s been emptied of everything
including myself and my name
to make more room for people to get in.
And if they’re out here with me alone
out of sight of land or hope or human
I teach them to swim through the great nightsea
like the stone of the moon
thrown through a window of water
to keep the lucidity of the child inside
from going out like the afterthought
of something mad and beautiful
that died in old age.
It took a fool to enlighten the fool
who became the sage.
It takes a lot of suffering
to look look deeply
into the heart of joy
and not feel saddened
by the way I disappointed the boy in me
by not finding an easier way to be happy.